love and peace to y'all,
alisa
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- Friday, June 17, 2005 @ 12:25 AM
well,had my training yesterday...kinda had fun..training wasnt as tiring as usual...at first,there were only three of us..but after the second drill,this guy said that he injured his leg..which i think,is soooo not true!!!!!!but,my coach,not wanting to push him,let him rest throughout the whole training...only when we're playing matches then his leg was no longer injured...+sigh+...wish i had thought of that injured leg story first....but,thanks to him,the two of us didnt have to do anymore tiring drills...after that guy told coach lennet about the him injuring his leg,we did liftings..*sighs in content* im soo glad that we actually did that..cause my forehand was wrong...hmm..must be tennis affecting it..gosh...sometimes i wonder whether i'll actually be able to differential between tennis and badminton..tennis is using arm power...blablabla...while badminton is about using your wrist...gosh...sometimes i just wanna quit..but..something inside my mind kept telling me to go on..continue what im doing..hmph...guess maybe it's my mind telling me to follow my heart..well,back to my training...after lifting,we did tapping...I LOVE TAPPING!!!so fun!!!haha...it's soooo much easier than lobing and smashing...+sigh+...speaking of smashing...my smashings...i dont know..i just dont realli have control of my smashings anymore...it's just...i cant smash whenever i want to now..ever since i came back from china,ive become like this!hmph..i shouldnt blame china..maybe it's my fault that i didnt train hard enough in the past...well,that's me,always taking advantage of all the good things that happen to me..after tapping..we played some matches...+sigh+...lost one match....which is...pretty pathetic...the match that i lost..was a singles match...+sigh+..i just get myself sometimes...whenever i play singles...i'll just freak out and my mind will become totally blank!when playing,i cant think,i cant run..i cant even play properly!the only one thing that alwaes stays constantly in my mind is that,im gonna lost..+sigh+...coach lennet saw my fear and insecurity and talked to me about it..+sigh+...."be more confident when you're playing" was what he told me...but...how can i be confident of doing something i shamefully fear?!?+sigh+...maybe im just afraid of being alone...when it comes to friendship and personal stuffs..i can be a loner..but,when im in court..i just cant!so frustrating..maybe i should try to conquer my fear by playing more...hmm...tomorrow would be my opportunity...after training,coach treated hios ex-student and i to prata...i have to admit,it was D-E-L-I-C-I-O-U-S!!!haha..and for once,i finished my drink!well..after that...he sent me to clementi and i just took the bus home..+sigh+..not really used to being alone..usually when janani's around,she would alwaes talk and talk to me..haha...i speak as if like she's not gonna come for training forever!+sigh+..but her father told her that he's planning to cancel her trainings with coach and make her join another training course which is in hougang sports hall..sure..i would love to join her..but...it's depending on how much that course cost..i think its not bad going alll the way there to train..i mean,at least we get the eat big mac..well,it's of to bed for me now..SPANISH WAITER!!!!!
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