after reading everyone's[peeps from 608] blogs,i realised that we all changed..hahas..it seems kinda weird to finally admit it after denying it for so long.frankly speaking,some changed for the better,while some,changed for the worse..surprisingly,i feel even more happier and carefree with my secondary school friends than with my primary school friends..perharps,its because i've been spending most of my time with my secondary school friends rather than with my primary school friends.they say that time will test one's friendship with another..i have to say,time is really testing us..
i cant believe im saying this,but,im really glad that i chose this school..in the past,i was ashamed of my school..even to the extent that i would feel that my school is something hideous that shouldnt be heard or spoken about..weird huh?well,now,on the contrary,i feel that its an honour to wear my school uniform and now,walk in my school gate holding my head high.guess i've already accepted my school..there may be many short comings of this school,but its just a matter of accepting it or not..and i guess,i've already done so.
friends from primary school are great..but i somewhat feel that something is missing among us..i somehow,dont feel the spark that i used to have whenever im around them.funny as it sounds,i feel like i dont belong to this bunch of friends whom i had laughed,teared and shouted with for the past few years..the connection is just,synpathetically as it may sound,gone.perharps it is due to the same thing again..TIME.time,can change alot of things.it can make us grow apart,it can even make us even more fonder of each other..making us appreciate each other even more..as the saying goes,absence make the hearts grow fonder..but i,think to differ.now,after one year has passed,i feel that,absence doesnt make our hearts grow fonder,but it makes us grow even more further apart from each other.strange as it sounds,its true.exceptional it would be to those with strong bonds that arent easily broken..however,for our case,even though it may seem that we're still close and even though we say that we wont end up like this,we still unknowingly became like this.UNKNOWINGLY grew apart from each other..UNKNOWINGLY stopped talking to each other.and finally,UNKNOWINGLY begin to find each other a nuisance.perharps,it is time we grow up and start to admit that everything that i've posted to day is true..but somehow,deep inside of me beg to differ.somewhere inside of me is struggling to believe that this is true.i sometimes even wished that someone can just assure me that everything is still the same.and that our friendship hasnt changed.but,too bad that someone didnt come..and soon after that,the strong belief that i once had for these friendships,the strong belief that the closeness of these friendship would never change,has slowly died as time passed..again,time is the issue.but,i somehow am glad that this has happened..for,if it didnt,i wouldnt have realised this and finally,learn to accept it..
well,secondary school friends is another issue.and,i must say,i really do enjoy the accompany of these peeps as much as i did last year with my old primary school friends.but,deep down,i know that this is gonna change once we all change to different classes..so right now,all i can do now is,appreciate everything and everyone who's around me..
oh well,i guess this is one of the longest and meaningful posts that i've ever had..to those peeps who've read until here,i really do take my hat off you..hahas..having read such a LONG post must be tiring huh?hahas..well,if you do have any comment on this post,OR realise that my english is wrong,please do correct me..hahas..and to peeps from 608,think about what i've posted.if you think that im wrong,prove to me that i am.i would like to see if we really didnt change at all.=) well,its off to my show now..spanish~
PS. im SO sorry ivan!!hahas..guess i didnt sleep at 12.08 and one quarter..!;) HOPE YOU DONT MIND!hahas..i guess,I OWN YOU!hahas..SO SO sorry!!wont do it again..I PROMISE!=)
love and peace to y'all,
alisa
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