some guy sits really close alisa.
* :: God is trying to tell you something.
alisa :: moves closer to *
* :: is God trying to tell me something?
alisa :: nah, He's trying to tell him (the guy) something.

Heeheheheheeeeee.

Went to Flyers today.
Half an hour ride for 30 bucks?
Hmm, not really something I'd fancy.
Or want to go for the second time.
No doubt the view is nice.
But, its nothing special la.
Maybe cause I've seen better?
I dont know.
Haha.
Not really nice squeezing with others too.
Maybe it'd be better if it were private?
Then again, money would be an issue.
Haha.
And 30 bucks, gosh.
Think of all the ice cream and chocolate chip cookies I can buy!
Haha.
Overall, food is more worth it.
Hahaaaa.

Went to Rashyd's concert.
Not bad not bad!
Its nice to see a friend supporting(:
Hahaha.
The ambiance from the place gave a very nostalgic feeling.
Reminds me of all the jamming sessions from before.
Haha.
There was one particular band.
Couldnt really make out what he was singing.
All I heard was,
"Doi doi doi. Oi Oi Oi. "
And it sounded like a pig was being slaughtered and a very bad case of vomiting.
Ahhhh.
I guess I just cant appreciate these music.
Felt kinda out of place there-.-
Everyone was wearing black or really dull colours.
And what was I wearing?
White - -
I didnt look like I was going to a rock concert.
I looked like I was going to a museum.
GEEZ.

I'll let the pictures do the talking.

Changed my song, again.
Haha.
Been on my head since agessss.
Well, not exactly.
Haha.
AHHH.
A lovey dovey song.
So not suited for me.
But I guess it will be, in time?
Nah, gonna take awhile till that happens.
Heheeee.

Randommmmmmm post.
Thank you Ah Jie,
your words really motivated me:D
And never fails to put a smile on my face.
heeeeeee.
THANK YOU:D

Work was..
Interesting.
Haha.

Had the worse dream ever.
Or rather, the most realistic dream ever.
Up till now, it still affects me as much.
Haha.

Things happen.
But I still gotta move on.

alisa :: aiyo. damn irritated leh.
* :: dont care. if it happens again, you msg ferociously. LOL.

Haha. Thanks man.
I seriously felt better after that.
Heeee(:
OH.
And thank you Joel(:

Read all of my old posts and my old diaries. ( yes, I do keep them. and yes, I have quite a few. )
From my primary school days.. To now.
Hmm. Its kinda weird. To look about my 10 years old thoughts.
Its like reading a child's diary, just that, its mine.
Haha. All the petty thoughts.
And weird, angry, funny moments in my young life.
Ohgod, I sound so old.
Haha.

Then came the part when I started Secondary School.
Hmm. I remember how much I used to hate Bowen.
Haha. But look at me now.
Missing Bowen like hell.
The irony. Haha.

Finally I read about my recent relationships.
From Jerome to Daniel.
Haha.
Yes, to all those who dont know.
Daniel and I have broken up.
And before you go "HUH! They broke up already ah!" and start with your gossiping,
dont bother to.
Its already old news.
Haha.
And Im sorry, but no, we are still friends.
We're not shooting daggers or starting a hate club of each other.
So you can go pack your stuff and go home.
Not much gossips you can get from here.
Hahaaa.

As I was saying before I side tracked,
I realised, many things happened la.
And that I can prolly produce a movie with all the dramas in my life.
Yes, another "Confession Of A Teenage Drama Queen, the boring version"
Haha.
And though I may be cynical and critical about certain things around me now,
I've grown, alot.
Haha.
Not outside, but inside as well.
So I may have shrink on the outside.
Till Chyuan Ming said that my thighs looked like it was cut into half - -
But yea, I expanded on the inside.
Hmm.
Do I even make sense?
Haha.

So yeap.
Couldnt really sleep.
So I decided to just talk about everything.
Yes, though I have a diary, I choose to type it here.
And no, Im not lame.
Im just too darn lazy to write.
Besides, Im runninf out of pages.
Another thing to put in my imaginary 'to do list'
Haha.

All I needed was a reminder.

-edited-

Haha.
Figured that it wouldnt be nice to wash my dirty linen in public.
I can only say one thing though.
I wont care anymore.
I seriously had enough.

Badminton was great.
CANNOT PLAY WITH GEORGE ALREADY LA.
Xia suay man.
And I think I should just squat down when Im in the front.
HAHA.
Ice cream was awesome(:

Had company over today.
Instant noodle was greattt.
HEE(:
We should have a next time yea?:D
But this time,
no scalding me please - -

Congrats to Bowen 'B' girls.
Im so proud of you:D
Just too bad I couldnt be there to witness it.

I was nauseous and tingly all over. I was either in love or I had smallpox.
LOL.

* :: Omg, my office has this chiobu. So MILF.
alisa :: .... huh? whats MILF?
* :: mothers I'd love to fuck.
alisa :: OMFG. 0.0

Dont laugh okay oy.
My innocent mind doesnt know of such thing.
LIKE SERIOUSLY LA.
And there's also GILF ( quoted by the pervert ).
O.O

Shopping was awesome(:
Well, it wasnt exactly shopping.
It was more of exploring Singapore.
Haha.
At least now I know how to go to certain places.
AND I KNOW WHERE WATERLOO STREET IS:D

Walked till my feet ached (well, a lil') and sleepy.
Haha.
Move aside chocolates.
Now its time for hotdogs(:
The funny thing about my cravings is that I dream about them.
Haha.
And it really sucks to wake up and realise,
"oh, it was a dream -.-"
Haha.
No, Im not a glutton kae.
I just love food.
HEHE(:

Thank you for accompanying me today.
Though we were supposed to explore and all.
I ended up buying.
And made yall wait.
IM SORRY!
I think I know what Daniel meant already.
haha.
But anywayyyy,
MUST HAVE A NEXT TIME KAEEEE:D

Anyway, its back to my hotdog now.
Hehee.

I crave for chocolate chip cookie.
Actually, I crave for anything that has got to do with chocolate.
HAHA.
Hmmmmmm.
Work was okay.
But business was badddd.
Must be because of common test.
GOOD LUCK TO THOSE HAVING THEIR TEST(:

And yeap.
Its just another random post from me.
Haha.

* :: wah. he very good leh.. so nice.
alisa :: of course la. my ex leh.


HAHAHA.
what a conver.

Went shopping with Gwynnie today.
Yes, shopping. WITH GWYNNIE.
Hahaha.
And she helped me choose my earrings.
Yes, its the same Gwynnie we're talking about.
HAHA(:
Too bad it was cut short cause of something dumb.
Ohwell.
There's always next time eh?
Haha.

Joke of the day.

alisa :: .. ohyea! you know how to go to waterloo?
* :: .. waterloo idk leh. but waterhose, watercloset i know. lol.
alisa :: huh, got such place meh.. i didnt know leh=/
* :: haha, i made those up la. LOL. lousy leh you.
alisa :: bangs head on the wall.

Thats why, I think I need a " Map of Singapore, dummy's edition."
LOL.

Went to Xinghua Primary to play today.
Hmm, was expecting all the Ah peks and Ahmas to participate.
But who knew there'd be some young people too!
And when I mean young, I meant people around my age.
Haha.
Kranji Secondary.. CCPS ( I still dont know what the hell that means).. CJC and many more.

Played like shitttt at first.
But surprisingly,
WE WON!
Haha.
But at least I got better and better after that.
Hehee.
And everytime the guys cant take my smashes,
Im doing secret victory dances inside.
LOL.
Especially the Kranji Sec guy.
Even tho he claims that he wasnt serious-.-
Secretly throwing daggers at him.
LOLOLOL.

So we played.
And we met miniature Lindan.
Bloody hell, he even wore the same shirt as him!
Haha.

And as usual, we had to wait and wait and wait for our turn to play.
This time, I came prepared.
For that, I was known as Doraemon.
LOL.

After that....
It was, dinner and poolllll.
Okay, been ages since I played.
But still, it was good!
Haha.
Did things that only ALISA THE PRO can do.
HAHAHAA.

So, let the pictures do the talking~

Takes two hands to clap.
Nothing's gonna change if your never gonna change your ways.
I cant help you if your gonna continue being like this.
Seriously, how long do you think that I can cover you?
Im already putting mine and her ass on the line for you.
But if you dont buck up, Im sorry.

Right from the start, I told myself not to pull strings.
But I did, for you.
So please dont push it any further.
Cause I might just be the one who'll pull the plug.
And if that really happens, you can hate me for all you want.
But I can only tell you,
You brought it upon yourself.

One word, lethargic.
I've never felt so eff-ing tired in my life.
And Im so sorry for being superrr cranky today.
This is what happen when a lady lacks sleep =/
And the hot chocolate didnt make it any better-.-

Tournament tomorrow.
PUNGGOL HERE I COMEEEEE~

just because i dont show.
doesnt mean i dont care.

Busy busy day!
And for that, I rewarded myself with a spinning head.
What a catch -.-
Hahaa.
So much for stoning today huh?

Finally moved my fat arse to make the chocolates.
And dear Gwynnie ate till her voice was gone:D
Not my fault kae, they were simply too irresistible already:)

Finally catched up with a long lost friend.
Well, not exactly long lost la.
Yet on the other hand,
he's kinda like one.
Considering the fact that he went MIA in his virtual world-.-
HAHA(:

Belated celebration in a way I guess?
Haha.
Catch up on old times and yea, it was fun:D
Hahaa.
And shopping was funnn.
Thank you for finding that colour I wanttedddddddd.
Like finally la.
I found a colour which we both were satisfied with.
Actually, its more of me la. LOL.
We deff must have a second trip:D
And test all the colours again.
HEHE(:

I realised I look weird in the morning,
just after I wake up.
And I also realise that I have a croaky voice in the morning too.
Or maybe its cause of my sore throat.
Hmm, I think it is-.-
And I do curse and swear at how early it is.
Hmm.
And after all these realisation,
I realise,
Im not a morning person ._.
HAHA.
One of those random moments Im having right now.
hehe.

I also think that my room is in a hugeeee mess.
And yes, I've been procrastinating since..
Last year.
Hahaa.
Or maybe it was way before last year?
Ahhh. NEVERMIND.
I should start my list now.
Hehehee.

come back.
dont come back.
oh, the contradictions.

Please la.
Didnt you learn any manners during these 16 coming 17 years of your life?
I know your very great.
And that everything's my fault.
But it wasnt necessary to speak like that.
Besides, who gave you the right to?
You didnt even had the balls to tell her anything.
Haha.
Maybe cause you already know that your bullshit's gonna be exposed by her.
Ha, pathetic.

Tiring day.
Not in a mood to post.
Thanks to a particular someone.

Deep down, I know you know who you are.

Seriously tired today.
Hmmmmmmmmmm.
And its dumb how I get tired at the weirdest time.
Haha.
Finally went back to school and ate my Lor Mee.
OHGOSH.
I just miss Bowen food so much.
Hahaa.
Gives me that nostalgic feeling.
AHHHHH.
I miss school life.
But I prolly wont once Poly starts.
HAHA.
Ohman.
The contradictions-.-
Heheheheeee(:

Had picnic with Nana, Mr Lim and Ah Hwee.
I seriously love the seaweed man.
Maybe I'll get one myself next time.
But I always get so screwed when I eat seaweed -.-
DOESNT MATTER LA.
Happy can already:D
Talk and talk and talk and talk.
Hahaa.
If not we could stop time and stay like that.
Then we could keep that carefree feeling.
Hahaa.

I think, its not about playing badminton that matters.
Its catching up with my fellow teammates thats important.
All the talk cock sessions.
Haha.
AHHHHH.
Maybe I should stop work once or twice a week and go back:D
So that Mr Lim can give me that treat(:
hahahah.
CHEAPO.

So now, Im off to do my important business.
Slacking ._.
LOL.

Or maybe I should start doing something about my 'to do list'.
I've been procrastinating for wayyy too long.
Ohwait. I dont have one -.-
HAHA.

Time seem to pass when your having fun.
Hmm, well, not exactly la.
Maybe cause we spent most of our time slacking.
Hehehehe.

So I managed to drag my ass to play today.
Ohman.
Next time ar,
dont book so early already kae-.-

Todays the day.
Jiayou!

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY DESMOND TAN AND JOANNA CHNGGGGG!:D

Yesterday you cried your hardest.
Today you smile your widest.
Pull yourself together.
You can do it.
You must.

What a hot day today!
Too bad we cant parade around with bikinis.
If not it'd be just nice!
HAHA.
Okay lameeeeee.
Hehe.

Chin up.
Everything's gonna be okay.
Macho man couldnt cry.
So let us girls cry for you(:
HAHA.

of all of them, your the worse.

Flu bug has decided to attack me this week.
But thats not gonna ruin my Valentine(:
Hahaa.

Thanks for all the presents and wishes(:
Really appreciate it alot:D

Somehow, I dont know whether to hate or love today.
HAHA.

This post is dedicated to you all.

Dont be upset by what happened today.
You've all done your best, keep your chin up.
Dont lose hope.
Dont give up.
Continue to strive. Play your best.
And show those suckers what you've got.
Monfort, so what?
Show them what you've got.
Show them, Bowen Badminton is no pushover.
And that THEY are lucky to have met you.

I know, its hard to face him.
After all that he's done, said and expected.
But remember.
Winning is just a bonus.
Having to complete this journey, thats what the important thing is.
All the lessons you've learnt,
bonds you've made.
Everything, both in and out the court.
Those, matters.

Do know that, ahjie is forever proud of you.


Thank you, for being there.

Going back today just brings back memories.
The times I've cried, laughed, cheered... etc.
Its place full of memories man!
Cant really describe how much I miss this place.
But I can say, Im damnnn happy:D

After what seemed like AGES, I finally played!
And yes, I know I may get worse.
But nevermind!
Badminton is more important.
HAHA(:

I think they should give teachers DC for being late for lessons.
But then again,
that means more lesson time for us right?
And for slackers like me,
HMMMMMM...
Haha.
I think better not.
HAHA(:

Okay, true to my words.
I really did become Mr. Alisa Tan.
And yes, all those who heard my voice, had a good laugh at it.
Hahaaa.
YEOW KAIJIE YOU BETTER WATCH OUT KAE!
I'll make sure I'll ring you if your voice is goneeeee.
HAHA(:

Thank god for Gwynnie man.
If not I think I'd have scared off all the customers with my voice.
HAHA!

So I finally visited the doctor.
And I discovered a new clinic!
Hahahaaaaa.
I'd always thought that it was a dental clinic.
But not a clinic clinic! LOL.

So today is the last day Lunar New Year.
Something I didnt know until Gwynnie told me.
And they say that your supposed to have a reunion dinner on this day.
Well, since we both werent having any, we decided to have our own.
Butttt, without the luo hei and sharkfins and blablabla.
Haha.
It was just a few simple dishes.
Which, as usual, we couldnt finish -.-
Hahaa.



Yeap, see those fat legs and big tummy there?
Its Gwynnie's. NOT MINE.
HAHAHAHA!(:

And yea, we decided to play some game to finish the food.
Whoever loses, would have to finish one mouth of the food.
And yessss, Gwynnie lost to the amazing Alisa:D
HEHE(:
Its some game we used to play when we were in Primary school.
"JI GO BA!"
And towards the end of Primary school, it became.
"WHO LOVE WHO"
Freaking hilarious, I tell you.
Havent had such a good laugh in AGES.
I think the whole area could hear us laughing.
Poor Gwynnie laughed till her face turned red and tears came out.
Hehehe.
We should do it some other time aye Gwynnie?:D

Discovered many things today.
Opened my eyes and ears and everything.
Hehe.
And I think I've finally woken up.
And learnt to stop reproaching myself.
Ahhh.
Guess its the first step?
Haha.
Baby steps, but SOMEHOW SOMEWHAT,
I'll get thereeeee(:

It was a relatively good show.
Typical chick flick,I guess?
Haha. But it was alright for me.
One of the actors in the show just melts my heartttttt.
He was so understanding and sweet and everything.
One of those 'extinct' guys. Hahaa.
Buttttttt, what a name to use ._.
I mean, come on la.
OF ALL NAMES.

Didnt really buy much yesterday.
Was doing more of window shopping than shopping shopping.
Wasnt really anything that caught my eyeeee.
Or maybe Im just plain fussy.
HEHE.

Had random chats with random people.
And its funny how these random chats can actually make you realise certain things.
Things that you've forgotten.
Hahaa.

Alright, now back to searching for my book.
OH WHERE OH WHERE IS MY RED DOODLE BOOK.
OH WHERE OH WHERE CAN IT BEEEEE!

OHYEA BEFORE I GO.
let me reply the tags which I took forever to reply. Haha.

GWYNNIE :: HAHAH! yeayeayea. in your dreams la(:
BRANDON :: haha, thank you!:D you take care of yourself kae!(:
MEIHWEE :: YEAP! THANK YOUUUU! hope you have fun in SR kae!:)
JIAHAO :: assholeeeee! why give me such an awful nameeee!
HUILIN :: haha, okay(:
BLACK PIG :: okay! better win hor! who you playing with? andddd, yea. MAKE SURE YOU DONT INJURE YOURSELF AGAIN HOR. I TELL YOU I WONT JUST SCOLD ALR OKAY! I WILL KILL YOU, UNDERSTAND! and yes of course. finally change the retarded song right? haha. but then the old song was also nice ma! plus, cause i may be single. but i have no intention of being with anyone yet ma. the next time you see available, it means something alr. HAHA.

Thank you.
I know. I will. I must.
Thank you.
Im never beaten.
Broken, never defeated.

I think Im gonna get diabetes soon man.
Drinking the same sweet sweeetttt drink twice a day -.-
Haha.
And because of that, Im gonna sound like Mr. Alisa Tan.
HAHAHA.

Its funny how something simple can make you one sooo happy.
Just one rose, one small rose.
Was enough(:
But it could also mean another thing.
ALISA TAN IS DEPRIVED.
Hahahaha.

I miss playing man.
Its been ages since I've played.
And seeing Milly carry her rackets, made me even more envious!
OH HOOOOOO.
I want to play!
George, Chyuan Ming, and whoever whoever!
ORGANISEEEEEE.
Haha.

So many random thoughts buzzing in my head today.
It was a chore having to clear every single one of them.
And it left me feeling constipated-.-
Hehe.

Alright.
Its back to shopping for me now:D
HEHE.

Hmm, spent most of the time cleaning up for those messy customers.
(TSKTSK!)
Was trying hard not to curse and swear (loudly) at them.
But, we met our fair share of nice customers too:D
Gwynnie went high with her hot guy. (LOL!)
And once we saw him,
we were off to stalking!
Left poor Jovyn inside(:
HAHAHAHAA.
Poor guy was so helpless when we left him.
Aiya, cannot blame us ma.
We're hot blooded girls!
HEHE.

Have the sudden cravings for ice cream.
Oh wait. I have it in my fridge.
Hehee(:
HAPPY HAPPY:D

WORK WORK WORK.
Thats all I do these days.
It seems like its been ages since I last stoned at home..
Oh wait.
I did on tuesday, and I wished I had work -.-
Now that I do, I WANT MY STONING BACKKKK!
Ahhh. How contradicting -.-

AH SHUCKS.
I miss all my friends.
Now that school has reopened for some of them,
ITS SO HARD TO TALK TO THEMMM.
I miss all of our random chats.
MILLY, YAOLE!
You're being missed.
Man. One of these days, I should take leave and have an outing with all my missing friends.
Haha.
And maybe squeeze in abit of shopping spree:)
HEHE.

Im glad its finally here!:D

till then,
EATEATEAT!:)

TIRED TIRED.
Think I should go escape somewhere someday, with just my ipod.
Maybe at some ulu island with a wonderful resort by the beach.
The sound of the waves crashing.
The gentle breeze..
The clear blue water.
OHMAN.
Makes me miss Bali even more.
Haha.
Guess the only way I'll get there is through my dreams.



Finally met up with Randy, my buddy who's been MIA-ing since.... well, forever.
Haha. Its not me okay Lagoon, ITS YOU.
Always stay at home and play your stupid dota -.-
LOL.
It was fun, catching up with him after what seems like 5826485058 years.
Hahahaha(:
All the jokes, and the complaining and FRENCH FRIES:)
Hehe.
We should meet up again soon kae!:)

till then,
workworkwork!

I think today's 'weird customer' day.
Cause all of them are just, plain weird.
Or rather, random.
AND OH, not forgetting, MESSY too.
It seems like they love messing the whole section uppp.
Im sorry if I seemed really moody today.
I was just too tired.
Lack of sleep = Moody.
So yeap, SORRY MAN.
Hopefully, if I manage to get a peaceful slumber,
I'll be fresssshhhhh!
Or maybe I should just drink more bubbletea.
Sugar rush! LOL

Had a special visitor today :D
Him and his act cute face -.-
HAHA.
But still, thank you for accompanying me for sooooo long!
And Im so sorry you had to stand for so long.
Hehe.
Lunch, my treat kae!:)

OH. Came across this.
Dont you think its true?

The common reason why men wander/ lost their feelings: the need to regain back their person.
Becoming a couple means having to compromise yet more often than not, these concessions men make are temporary.

Okay, I can sorta understand. Cause they'll be doing the same thing over and over again.
Like, "what are we gonna watch today? How was your day? Where do you wanna eat?"
Actually, its more of, the movies that she want to watch and the place where she wanna eat at.
And because of that, guys tend to feel resentful and all. And this resentment turns into a pining for single life, where he can exercise his own free will again.

But then again. We girls didnt ask you to watch what we wanna watch. In fact, most of the time, (well, for my case) we're fine with watching what you wanna watch, and eating at where you wanna eat. Giving you suggestions doesnt mean that you HAVE to go with it. We're just giving you more options?
I know, its much easier in the long run for guys to just give in. But, we never asked you to. Even if we insist on doing what you wanna do, wouldnt it be the same with you insisting even more that you'd wanna do what we'd suggested or want to do?

Im not directing this to anyone. I was just, wondering?

So at the end of the day, when the guys get tired of the 'us' life, who's fault is it?
The girls who got to do what they want, or the guys for giving in most of the time?

I guess, both are at fault here.
But then again, what do I know?
Im just a 17 year old half girl half woman who doesnt know anything.
Haha.

Alright, Im tired.
My brains already lagging from fatigue man.
Haha, NIGHT(:

Spent the whole day shoppingggg.
OHMAN. My legs hurt like hell man.
Buttttt,
at least I finally bought the things that I wanted.
Its as if Im doing post Chinese New Year shopping.
Haha, either way,
IM HAPPPY!(:

Who knew that PARKWAY PARADE (finally got it right kae!) was such a good place to shop?
Was totally shocked when I saw how much the place has changed!
It has become...
A SHOPPING PARADISE!
Haha, maybe cause almost everything there was on discount.
I just couldnt stop buying and buying and buying.
And because of that Im now BROKE BROKE BROKE.
Dont laugh okay vyn,
AT LEAST I WORK TO PAY FOR ALL THESE(:
hehe.

Okay, now Im tired like helllll.
And Im going to bed now.
Hehee.

Read all of my posts from before.
Well, from my secondary school days, that is.
Sigh.
Those were the days man.
When I was still complaining about training.
And going through the mundane school life.
Haha.
Somehow, I miss it man.
Those days when I was worried about being late for training.
Sneaking about during reading period.
Chionging for class tests.
And skipping Biology. (HAHA!)

And after that came the sad, emo posts about Daniel.
Wah, bloody hell.
I didnt know that I wrote about, close to 50 posts about him.
So many posts dedicated to him!
He should be honored man.
Hehe.
But aiya, it wouldnt have mattered anyway.

After reading on all my thoughts and feelings for him,
It feels like Im looking at things through a window.
As if I was some onlooker looking at well, me. Haha.
I cant say that I've completely lost my feelings for him.
But I can say that I've finally bring myself to close that chapter with him.
Wasnt an easy process but I made it through!
And its all thanks to the company and support of friends(:
So, THANK YOU!:)
You guys are gems man.

The moment you see that you no longer need a password for this blog is when Im finally over him.
Haha.
Dont worry, you wouldnt have to wait long.
Cause its only a matter of time.
Or rather, days.
Haha.