There were only two teachers left until Mr Lim left. So it was only down to Mr. Bay and me. We spent three hours doing this simultaneous questions only to be talking to each other instead. HAHAS. But though he is an adult who is like, ten over years older than me, he understands whatever that I was saying. And, frankly speaking, its been a long time since I've actually spoken about all of the things happening lately. Dont know why, but I just had the sudden urge to talk. Started out with my bhb-ing but after a while, I was just, tired. Dont know why. Must be due to History.. Just, tired. =) Like I said, thinking or talking about problems will make you SLEEPY. And I mean, SLEEPY. They'll make you feel like sleeping; literally. HEHE. XD
So, I just..ended up telling him about what was going on in my life at the moment. At that moment, I didnt treat him as a teacher, but as a friend. A friend, whom I just, would talk to endlessly without any worries or fear of consequences of what I was gonna say. Yes, Im thinking before I talk. But I'll just leave that topic to later..
The point is, we talked and I extremely enjoyed and appreciate the time we spent talking. It seems that after talking to him, I've been more clear of whats going on in my head. All the things buzzing around in my head are now, buzzing in a slower pace. It didnt stop.. But slowing down was already good enough. Its been a long time since I've properly gather my thoughts and talk about them; my feelings, thoughts and just, thoughts. It helped alot, really. As it really did made me look back to my life and just, recall all the different things that I've experienced. It was only until this year that I knew that feeling hurt could be this tiring. It was only until this year that I knew,even smiling, can sometimes be hard. This year, was the year that I've experienced and discover alot of things. GEE. I sound like Im concluding about this year. HEHE. =)
And after talking to him, I realised that, it isnt about changing back. Its about learning and applying what you've learnt. Listening to Mr Bay's advice had really make me, look at things in a much more broader view. Thus, I would like to thank him here for just, listening to me. Though he wont be able to read this post, I still wanna thank him.. Its his last term here in Bowen this year and I would like to wish him luck for the upcoming challenges that he's gonna face in the near future for his church job thingy. ALL THE BEST!=) Hope you would really connect to people like how you wanted to. It aint easy, but perseverance would do the trick. SMILE~
-Im on the verge of letting go now. And I must admit, its really hard to do so. But, I'll try and try and try till I've finally managed to do so. When there's a will, there's way. I can do it, I know I can.
PS. SLEEPY..;)
spanish~
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