As I read all of the things I wrote in my book, I could the many changes in me over the years.

Sworn never to trust again
My heart, will never be mended.
Sworn never to let anyone in.
Too fragile to keep.
Too fragile to hold.
Sworn never to tear.
My tears are not your worth
But now, my stand is clear.
Listened to my heart
Landing myself here.
Now sworn to follow my mind.
To get ahead better.

Recognise this? Hahas. Im sure some of you would have read it in my friendster a long time ago. Yupyup. This was me before. Full of regrets, anger and..Hmm. negative thoughts. Then I moved on to becoming this.

Stepping into the unknown
Unsure of the outcome
Insecurities kicking in
Afraid of changes
Afraid of regrets.
Heart refuse to move.
Yet, foolishly, my mind got ahead of me.
Now Im stuck.
Unable to move.
Dear god, enlight me.
For Im lost within
The crowd of hesistation.


Hmm..I guess all of you must be wondering why Im typing all of these down huh? Hmm.. Perharps, right now, Im not ashame to show people what kind of person I was last time ba. Or maybe, still am. Hahas. Im not showing off my poetry skills, cause they're not good at all. But, I guess, maybe I feel that its alright to show the ugly me le ba...[indirectly?]

The calls frequent
The chats constant
But its all gone now
The distance wider
The friendship drifting
We're back to where we started
In this ferris wheel
Each time we take the wheel
Our seatings gets further
Going round and round
Never meant to meet
Getting tired of riding
Leaving the next stop
Hoping to rest
Regain my strength
To move on to other rides.

As for this one. I think most of you would know who Im referring to la...Hmm..This one, is encouraging la.=)

Let go of the doubts.
Time will eventually tell
Let go of the pain
Time will eventualy heal
Let go of the sorrow
They'll run away soon
Let go of the misunderstandings
Things will work out
Let the raindrops fall
I wanna feel the rain
Let them come one by one
Its alright now.
Let the rain fall on me.

Finally, the last one is, hmm.. No comments la. -.- hahas..

Writing, writing, writing.
Not wanting to stop
Never thinking of pausing
Put a full stop to this.
This sentence is getting too long
The things involved complicates
Overwhelmed as it goes
Confused as I read
Too many errors
Too little approvals
Yet as I write
On and on endlessly
Calmed, I'd feel.
Eased, I'd be.
Ironically me.

This is..Story of my life la. As I write on, more and more gramatical mistakes are left behind. But, this time, Im not disturbed nor frustrated. Cause I know that I can learn through mistakes. So.. Its not bad to make mistakes la. What matter most is that I learn from it and move on. OHOH, never forgetting, never letting history repeat itself lor.. hahas.

spanish~