Silently looking at you-

This is what I plan to do before my feelings stop. Foolish isnt it? Well, Love makes a fool out of someone I suppose. Hmm.. But I cant exactly say that I love him now can I? Its just a simple crush that'll go away in a couple of days. But by saying that, Im actually deceiving myself. Ah, what the heck. Somehow, part of me wished that it'll be that kind of crush whereby it'll go away soon. At least it'll make life a whole lot of easier and less complicated. But, for now, all I can do now is, silently at his back as it slowly disappear.. Even though it'll be painful, I guess I just have to bear with it till the pain slowly disappear.

Yet still, Im confused about whether or not my feelings are true or not. Still in a dilemma I suppose. Vexing yet comforting in a way. Hahas, oh well, must look at things on the POSITIVE side. And SMILE MORE..=)) I've decided, why spend most of my time moaning and complaining on how pathetic my life is? Its gonna waste my precious time..=)) So, I'll let this be a motivation for me..=)) To show that asshole that Im fine without him..=))

*awaiting for the big day..=))*